I often have fantasys that I can't exactly tell anyone. This is the one that haunts my mind the most . I'm into bondage, submiison, pushing my limits. I have this all consuming need and desire to safely and completely give up control. I fantasize about being placed on my knees im front of a large mirror. My hair pulled back. Hands restrained behind me. A blindfold placed over my eyes. Allowing and Forcing me to only feel everything, relax and let go. Around my neck a collar with a leash is comfortably locked into place. My ankles bound tightly together. Helpless, I am forced to allow nipple clamps to be placed on my tits. Exploring my limits Crying out I have to force myself to let go. Enjoy the pleasure within this pain. As open my mouth and cry out, my leash and hair is grabbed up and a cock is shoved slowly into my mouth. As i struggle I feel the sting of a riding crop across my ass. I'm then informed if I resist i will be punished. I'm to relax, and enjoy getting my throat trained. The mirror is so.every stroke can be watched as it disappears. Making sure i get it right.As this is going on i feel my pussy throbbing,.dripping wet. Slowly each stroke goes deeper and deeper, I fight to keep my composure. As i struggle to relax I feel my clamps being teased. " This help you open your mouth and throat more " I hear. Crying out I make myself relax and begin to enjoy the intensity of trying to take this cock balls deep. Slowly each thrust gets faster, causing me to gag and squirm. Across my ass lands another lashing. Realizing my mistake I try to regain my composure and begin again. This time I stop fighting and begin to actually submit. Unable to move each stroke begins training me again. My leash pulled inward to meet each thrust, the sounds of me gagging filling the silence.,as I'm forced to hold my breath and enjoy the cock buried in my throat. Unable to touch myself or anything. Unable to see ... i start to enjoy and understand finally the freedom that comes from having no comtrol. I realize how turned on I am. How bad my pussy aches for attention. Each stroke not stopping, my clamps used to help me along. I realize that I'm starting to keep up. I begin to moan endlessly wanting more. Lost not wanting it to.end ... my throat is once again filled holding my head in place I gulp down the load I so rightfully earned. Nor wanting to waste a drop I make sure I clean every inch. Reluctantly my toy is taken away and replaced with a ball gag. I then am helped to my feet and bent over a stool that is placed under my stomach akewdrdly trying balance Ankles untied so my legs can be spread open and tied off to the feet of the stool. My hands still tied off. My tits hanging helplessly over the stool as the clips keep pushing my pain limits soaking my pussy. As i stand there I can feel my juices run down my legs. My clit gentley rubbed. Accepting I no longer want to resist. I finally let go. My aching pussy begging to be used. Slowly from behind I feel the head of this cock pushing inside me Moaning loudly into my gag I enjoy myself as my pussy grabs hold of this cock . Each stroke pounding my cervix. Drowning my pussy .My clit teased keeping me on the edge of cumming. My tits bouncing around causing jolts of pleasure to sweep over me. Enjoying every moment as I'm fucked properly from behind. I'm finally allowed to cum. My pussy dripping from the load left behind. ....shame I can't make this a reality.